Sian and LOVE

Hey...
this week i feel so sian..

look september of first i need 2 go home.. coz fasting month..
SIAN ar..

But i look forward.. because my parents agreed to sign up Broadband line...(internet)
hahaha.. Nice for me so that at least i can contact or even chat with TWINS..

hey, i also dont know.. my feelings with hilmi.. never vanished. while he have already vanish it.
Ya Allah.. haiz...
whenever i saw him at school, my eyes will stared at him so long...
Even kia and hwee cant tahan.. so poor thing lol..

But what can i do, i no longer close to him but always searching for him.
Love, Love...
Do love really existed? should i forget or should i contiuned to love him?

erm...
=(